D&C 50:45-46

Today I was finishing up my reading for my D&C class and I was caught by these last two verses of section 50:

"And the day cometh that you shall hear my voice and see me, and know that I am. Watch, therefore, that ye may be ready. Even so. Amen."

This is an event that I contemplate very often in my life. Like, most likely way more than it probably should.

Here is the reason why.

When I was in middle school I was extremely lost. I had a testimony, but I didn't know what to do about my beliefs. And I wasn't committed to them enough to act upon my beliefs. I struggled to find who I was and what I stood for.

The summer before I went into high school, I knew that I needed to change and start to really seek for the testimony that I knew that I should have and wanted to have. It wasn't until halfway through my freshman year, that this change finally stuck.

It was a night where I felt utterly alone. I finally turned to my Savior and said, I can't do this. I need a friend. I need someone here. And while he did send me the friend I needed (different story for a different day), I found another friend. Him.

He is there constantly for me. Giving me the strength that I can't seem to muster. He is there encouraging me with every step. He is there on my tests helping me to remember the knowledge that I had learned and studied. 

I seriously cannot wait for the day that I can see His face, hear His voice and finally be able to thank Him face to face and worship at His feet. I cannot wait to bathe His feet with my tears. I long to be able to physically feel His embrace, as well as the spiritual embrace that He gives me now.

So yes, this is a topic that is prevalent on my mind. And I am so glad that it is. Because as I think about this day and what I want to say to Him, mostly I want to be able to withstand His presence. The way to do that is to be righteous. Live to be the best person that I can be. Follow in His footsteps. Be an example of Him and His life. 

I need to watch and be ready. That means I can't slack off for a month and be like, well it definitely won't be this month it happens. It is a day to day, hour by hour, minute by minute constant work to be worthy of His presence. Yes, I screw up. I am the first to admit that I am far from perfect and have very far to go. But I am trying. And as long as I am trying and progressing, this day will be a happy one for the both of us.